I told God, "One year."

It is time to blog down some words here, needful words.

Last weekend my church held a Youthnet Gateway Cities Convention. It was timely because at this particular time, I was going some disillusionment about Japan. I felt that I have been so primed about Japan, that the slightest news about it, I can tremble with excitement, or my heart chords would resonate with the emotions played out then. So I told God, I want to hear from you, what would it be? Where, God? I want to give up on thinking so much about Japan, I want to hear Your thoughts. Where, God?

Then the first cities that on the itinery on Saturday, which was the day that I could make it for the convention, were Tokyo and Osaka. It was not so much of Tokyo, but that of Osaka presented by my church's Deaf Ministry. Suddenly something fell into place: why I would be going to climb Mt Kinabalu with the hearing impaired, why I would be learning sign language now though all the while in the past I had a keen interest to pick it up. As it started to make sense, I started to tear. And all the adverse culture of the youths in Japan, GB sprang into mind. Could I? Would it? I wondered. Somehow something must work, and I don't hold the key to start that mechanism.

Before the delegates started sharing on their cities, Ps Julie shared her devotion with us that it is not that of being driven, but being called by God. There's a focus in that, and that alone would sustain you throughout your work. I believe so much in this as God has called me to serve GB in times when I had hungered for division and wanted to stray to another ground. Yet God spoke of unity. I remember very well that time, and that helped me to pull through some hard times when I felt so alone in my work in GB.

So now, Japan. I need more answers, a clearer plan, Lord. How?